Leap of faith

today is just one of those days i cant get what i want

damn i really need to catch Hugo



needs to be alone. how ironic

Inferiority Complex

Totally topic

Inferiority complex: Normally, I will ask the indian worker to wash my car on Fridays and he will always reply me "boss this boss that". One day, I told him it wasnt necessary to call me boss as I feel over-addressed (if there's such a word). His is hardworking and humble, and i think that speaks for majority of the indian workers who come over to Singapore. Without, these foreign immigrants, Singapore cannot be what it is today. However, social friction inadvertently results and locals often ostracized them. Such social phenomen also occurs between the mexicans and americans, turkish and germans etc etc. Simply put, what i feel about this issue is that putting ourselves in their shoes, it isnt easily to work in a foreign land and being away from their family. As if things aren't worse enough, locals subject you to unncessary social "pressure" making you feel inferior and outcasted. why why why. Social status, fame, power, wealth and all is equivalent to nothing, we come into this world empty and we shall leave empty as well. Highly disillusioned by the way society works and how human behaviour is developed

Six in the City

-_-

more than a game

i quote from barcelona

Més que un club, more than a club, it's my childhood

Me loves Me

so bored

Approxmiation of time

we have 24 hrs a day. that's a hard fact, un-changeable within the laws of physics (unless you can find something that moves at the speed of lights or faster)

On average, we sleep 7 hrs a day

Maybe take 2 hr a day to maintain ourselves (eat, bathe, brush teeth, make up etc etc)

Work from 9 to 6 (conservatively speaking), thats about 9 hrs

Commute on average about 2 hrs a day

Do the maths, it's 4 hrs left for yourself on weekdays.

52 weeks x 5 weekdays x 4 hrs =1040hrs

How to make this 1040 hrs meaningful for the average working adult ?

"i'm tired" is so easily an excuse. All i can think of right now, is to dump all these nonsense and be a farmer. In that way, I re-claim my 24 hrs back.

All the materialistic pursuits don't bother me. After all, I came to the world empty and I shall leave emppty

Let's be logical here NOT

and then get lost in the irrationality and absurdity of all this. Being emo doesnt mean goth and poetry kind of manner. It just means that I think a lot about life and the meaning of it all. I feel like a hippie born in the wrong era. Love music peace. Take away love and free sex. i'm typing faster than I think, its more honest this way. typing whatever words that comes to mind. Makes this whole paragraph seem like an art work. Does your heart control your emotions and your mind the logic? What started the literature reference about heart storing your emotions anyway. Why are people certain about the future when they have absolutely no idea what holds in the next seconds for them? Why do characters change over time? it's actually not time, but life changing events. If we have a core belief and system, can we not change with the flow? I bet-cha we can. Does God look upon us and say we are too myopic in the grand scale of things ? What is going to happen really ! What is the answer !!!! tell me already. What is the the solution to quantum reality and "the theory of everything" ! How do humans define love and how does God define it? Are humans the only species capable of demonstrating that?

I laught the masses who wake up on Monday, believing that Monday will just be another normal day. For all you know, this day, can be life-destructing or life-changing. Stop dwelling in routines. Take people or things around you for granted. Live it as though its your last cos then, your passion will overtake you and do things that you want. Liberation is freeing your mind. I do wonder why I always exert this condescending tone when I speak. I mean no harm but it just comes naturally. Arrogance ? Dogmatic ? Tyrant ? It makes me fel that I'm in my own world.

“Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit”

Enough rantings. 12.33am. shes in dreamland. and I'm restless with too much questions and a desire to answer them all

The ideology

For many years, I've always believed in seeing the world through the eyes of a child. Because in that way, you wont get to see many sinister side of the world (u simply can choose to ignore).

but time has caught up with me, the ideology is falling apart.

and it's starting to eat me from inside out. the worse part is, it doesnt show on my face

be kind rewind

Jaded

My my baby blue
Yeah I'm thinkin about you
My my baby blue
Yeah I'm so jaded
And baby I'm afraid of you

四面楚歌

all noises.


if they envy, it means that i am doing well.

cheers to that

Welcome to the grey

:) i have arrived

Of passion

It sickens me that people around me have either no passion in anything they do or it burns out quickly.

Well actually, this rant is probably due to lack of soccer in recent weeks. I used to play soccer at 6pm everyday around my neighbourhood. Normally, we can get around 8-12 people easily. Back were the days when everyone was super gung-ho about soccer. Eat, sleep, talk soccer, u name it we do it. Nowadays, due to work, NS, girlfriends, etc etc, the numbers decrease to a pathetic number. Fair enough, not everyone is as "free" as me. But even on weekends, gathering 8 is still a problem (1 team = 4 players). I don't get it. If you really have a passion for something, won't you sacrifice some time for it? Dun just say "I love soccer" when in fact, it's just a "hobby" or something to kill time with. Now that I have started work, I will still drive down like a madman from office to try to make it back in time for soccer, albeit late. For the past 18 years of my life, I still hold soccer firmly as my "top 3 love-of-my-life". I'm proud to say that my passion never die one bit.

Speaking of passion, I dun understand how so many people can get by being sucked into a routine without much ahead directions. Feels like a living corpse if you ask me. Passion are reserved for those who truly want to live life. Even if it's collecting stamps, if you have passion, you truly deserve my respect.

The mighty has fallen

i am sick for the second time this year

Bought a laptop for the church today

you know me, someone who really likes electronics. while setting up the computer, it felt like i was giving up my baby away.


temptations of the devil

tired

So so tired, just wanna drop dead.

Sometimes i wonder

have the world lost its mind ?

Quote of the day

"Being single is good, no responsiblity but also no reproducitivity"

from ME !

I'm the king of an island called "me"

Being increasingly intolerant and frowning upon actions of others, I slowly begin to wonder if it is possible that i can buy a Caribbean island and live there with people who share my ideologies and beliefs. Well, of cos it will be eons before I can be rich enough to do that. Meantime, I can create this little bubble. A sphere around me that lets in certain people and pushes some out. Isn't that wonderful?

I call it "The art of shutting out". available now in all major bookstores.

Your value system

February 14, 2010
  Your value system has changed considerably in the last couple of years, and with those changes your social and personal needs have changed as well. Don't be afraid to explore new things. Invite fresh experiences into your life. What you need now is out there waiting for you, but you have to go out and get it.

My horoscope knows that I'm increasingly dogmatic and intolerant of others

Hate is

impulsive,  hate is unkind. It envies and boast, and it is proud. It is rude, it is self centered, it is easily agitated, it keeps a record of wrongs. Hate delights in misfortunes and rejoices with the lies. It always distrust, always fluctuates, always perseveres.

In modern times, Love always fails. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is not love but faith.

One thing I cannot stand

is how hypocrites saying how fake other people are. totally pisses me off. Just shut up already.

And no, I can't be read like an open book