Afterthoughts

To sum it in one sentence: It's not so much about presenting but rather, delivering the holy spirit to those who needed it.

I went super early to church on that day to prepare and ahem, sing the hymns with the pianist. Be mindful that I've never actually open my mouth the entire 10+ years in church to sing. And there I was, early morning on 16th Oct 2011, opening my vocal cords for the world to listen.

Well something interesting happened while I was sitting praying alone. An old lady came to the pianist (lubin) and hugged her and cried. Shortly after, a few others came along and offered comfort to the lady who cried. Apparently, the old lady's husband suffered a bad fall last month and is in a coma all this while. It can't be that coincidential that I theme-d my whole worship around "Comfort in Christ".

I felt a sense of mission, that is to deliver solace and comfort to the old lady through my worship. Tucked in a corner, I read my lines again and again and prayed for wisdom. As you can see, presentations are the norm for me in university days. Speaking to a crowd doesn't frighten me. But speaking in the name of God, boy, that really makes me cautious of every word I say and how i behave. For the past week, I've been re-examing myself and fearing that I will offend the almighty. During the worship, I felt that the body wasn't mine, my soul had to step aside for something greater than I am.

It was a surreal experience and one that I take very seriously. Never been so serious.